I was scheduled to go to Mountain View Hospital at 8:00pm on the 14th of March. We had decided to use cervidil for the initial induction. I entered the hospital dilated to a 3 and after 12 long hours after the cervidil was inserted I was a little more than discouraged with my body because I had only dilated to a 3.5. So around 10:30am the nurse ran an IV line of patocin and around 11:00 Dr. Baker came in and broke my water. The contractions got very heavy and painful. I had been planning on trying to do this naturally and laboring in the water, but for those who have had babies before you’ll understand, I dilated to a 9 in that hour, that’s how heavy and painful my contractions were, and there was only 30 seconds of relief between each contraction. I dilated 5.5cm in 1 hour! I asked Miles a few times to switch positions with me because I didn’t think I could handle it anymore. At around noon I asked for the epidural. It took him 20 minutes to get there. My IV line stopped working just as the anesthesiologist was about to administer the epidural so they had to find a new vein and run a new IV which took them another 10 minutes. He had a really hard time finding a break in my spine, it took him another few minutes; meanwhile I was still having really hard and long (about a minute and a half) contractions with 30 seconds to rest in between. I couldn’t even feel him wiggling that big ole needle around in my back because I was battling each contraction, trying to keep myself relaxed. At around 1:00 they came back in and checked me, I was dilated to a 10. I pushed twice and the nurse decided that he wasn’t ready and had me wait another hour to an hour and a half before pushing again. I was really happy to have the epidural at this point because I was looking at my contraction monitor line and it looked like the Grand Tetons, there were no moments of rest between contractions. I could still feel the urges to push with each contraction. Once Dr. Baker got there I pushed for about 35-40 minutes. Caiden August Heidorn was born at 2:02pm on March 15, 2011. He was 8lbs 1oz and 21.5in long. He’s a big boy with a full head of dark brown hair! I can’t even begin to explain how it felt to have my beautiful, perfect baby boy placed in my arms. It was the closest I have ever felt to heaven. It was surreal and so deeply spiritual. My mom and sister, Nikki, were able to join Miles and I in the delivery room. I loved being able to share that moment with them.
He was quite the acrobat in the womb. I could feel him tumbling around, but he had tied a perfect knot in the umbilical cord, which could have been fatal by cutting off his air supply. Luckily I was very active (swimming, running when I could, and towards the end walking on the track and walking stairs) and I ate pretty healthy, so the cord was very healthy! Dr. Baker kept marveling over how healthy and thick the cord was and the perfect knot.
I only had to have 2 stitches because my doctor was amazing! He would tell me when to push hard, when to push softly, and when to allow the contractions to move Caiden out and stretch me out naturally. The epidural wore off quickly and I was able to get up and move around within an hour and take a bath while Miles went to give Caiden his first bath! When they came back from the nursery I was amazed at how much Caiden already looks like Miles! Looking at my sweet baby swells my heart with so much love, and somehow he has made me love Miles even more. I didn’t think that was possible. Miles is an amazing daddy! He’s happily changed every diaper, burps him when he’s done eating, and wants to hold him close all the time. I love watching them together and seeing Miles kiss Caiden’s head when he falls asleep. He was so anxious to get Caiden from the nursery this morning. He said he couldn’t sleep any longer, that he missed Caiden too much and that it was like Christmas morning.
Sitting and typing this while he’s sleeping in the bassinet next to me I miss him. He is so perfect and beautiful. It’s amazing that I could love someone so much in a single second. From the first hello, from the first moment he was placed in my arms and looked into my eyes he had my heart.
Mountain View Hospital in Idaho Falls where I delivered.
The first time they placed Caiden in my arms.
He was so alert from the moment he was born, he kept gazing up in to my eyes. It was so amazing!
My sister Nikki and my mom holding Caiden in the hospital. I'm so happy they were both in the room to witness Caiden's birth.
This was Miles first time changing a diaper. He is a pro! In Caiden's 10 days of life I have literally changed maybe 5 diapers, and that's because Miles was in class. He always volunteers.
Left: Caiden is so expressive with his hands and loves to have them right up by his face! Right: this what he wore home from the hospital. He was all bundled up to face the Idaho cold!